I lie next to expectation
In comfortless stagnation
Thinking and sinking deeper inside
To the place where I hide
My most dangerous fears
I give in and cry the litany of tears
Each holding pieces of heart
Character flaws and body parts
My unfulfilled and broken dreams
My rapidly sinking self-esteem
Until empty I lie her and stare at the ceiling
And wonder if anything you might be feeling
Is triggered by happiness or warmth or desire
And I stand here alone at our together fire
Waiting.
