Expectation

I lie next to expectation

In comfortless stagnation

Thinking and sinking deeper inside

To the place where I hide

My most dangerous fears

I give in and cry the litany of tears

Each holding pieces of heart

Character flaws and body parts

My unfulfilled and broken dreams

My rapidly sinking self-esteem

Until empty I lie her and stare at the ceiling

And wonder if anything you might be feeling

Is triggered by happiness or warmth or desire

And I stand here alone at our together fire

Waiting.